The past 100 days have been a blur! Always happens that way, doesn't it? Especially if you have children and work. There is always somewhere to go, something to be done - always. Not that I didn't slow down from time to time...I certainly did. After all, it's summer-time!
My last entry, I wrote about my life's pace calming. I am glad I took time out to write about that - sure gives me clarity looking back. Lately, I have been very discouraged. The questions that seem to go unanswered creep back into my every day and then heap upon that are the current reminders that our financial way of life is completely different.
It was not easy moving out of our dream home. Mind you, my dream home is probably different than what yours would be, but for us, it was what we had dreamed of...near the country, the newness, the schools and friends for our children, the community; everything was just the way we had always prayed for our family. So, when we were forced to leave it due to so many unavoidable circumstances, it was and still is heartbreaking. Amazing how material things can flex your emotions to the extent you grieve when you lose them. How do you begin to tell your children that you are going to turn their lives up-side-down? It's heartbreaking and in this economy, I've seen more of it happening.
However, God shakes me hard when I know of friends who suffer mentally or physically, wives who lose their spouse or have children hurting from some physical condition. How ashamed I should be that material things shake my faith! God loves me, this I certainly know! These trials are how He wishes to bless me! I need to be shaken - I need to be reminded of how loved I am that He chooses me, He chooses to grow me! My home is not here on Earth, my home is in heaven folks! That is where I should be laying my treasure!
I thank my God above that I am just the clay, but He is the potter! As that old and wonderful saying goes, I am so thankful He isn't done with me yet!
Love & Hugs,
JJ
